Post by Howlpaw on Jul 1, 2009 13:26:18 GMT -5
Name:
Howlpaw
Age:
8 moons
Rank:
Apprentice
Gender:
Male
Clan:
Windclan
Personality:
Happiness is rare to come by tom. Ever since a life changing event happened, he lost his smile and joy. The last time he'd smiled was when he was a kit. Without that light he slowly began to push backward in the shadows, and away from others. He kept his feelings and thoughts to himself only, never allowing another to get near him. So he keeps much to himself, hardly talking with other cats. He'll only talk when another talks to him and he keeps the conversation short. Always does what he's told without having to say too much. He is incredibly loyal to his clan and there is nothing he won't do to protect his home.
Howlpaw's normal attitude is between calm or serious, Some days he'll take his responsibilities serious, making sure everything is done right. Or he will be calm and do things slowly and smoothly, taking his sweet time. It depends on how he feels in the morning.
When he is sad it is very hard for him to admit defeat. It's a weakness; one he doesn't like so much. Makes him feel weak for letting himself be vulnerable. He doesn't show his feelings in public--or anyone in that fact--but only allows himself to show his feelings when he is completely alone. So he usually escapes from the clan around evening and lets himself let out all those emotions he'd been keeping in all day.
If he had one goal, or something he wants badly, he'll be persistent; never giving up until he's got his desired wish. Sometimes if he gets really obsessive with his prize he'll get reckless. He won't care if he gets hurt, but he will do anything. So he keeps, or tries, to keep away from his desires much as possible. But he won't have a desire most of the time so he is out of the danger zone for a bit.
There is one thing that is hard for him to control: anger. Its one thing that burns like a flame inside him. His anger is caused by his father who left him alone when he needed him most. And it burns through him when he lest expect its; fire flowing in his veins at the worst possible times. It takes a lot out of him, but he controls it by thinking of his mother or his clan. Everyday he works on it, trying his best to improve from the anger problem. Day by day he gets better and the unexpected fury slowly starts to decrease.
Description:
Howlpaw is the type of cat who has those handsome looks, but doesn't care much for them. His body is lean and long, packed with sturdy muscles that ripple under his pelt when he walks. So his full on impact will cause damage. The tom mostly relies on his sharp teeth and claws for good uses only, trying to avoid fights when angered. When he is pissed he'll let his lethal weapons do the talking without ever having to say a word. His height is the same as any other apprentice: medium sized. Legs are long, but sturdy, allowing him to run faster and swifter. Narrow ears are medium sized, nicely angeled and are soft to the touch. There is a nick in his right ear from when his father clipped his ear with a single claw. His tail is thin, slightly long and is always moving back and forth behind him. Nose is dark pinks, thankfully not bright pink or it would attract unwanted attention. He has yellow eyes, always full of thought and are his main weakness: giving away his true feelings. He has brown tabby fur, blending in with the shadows. It is somewhat long, and incredibly silky smooth.
Doesn't really care about grooming that much. He prefers to keep it slightly ruffled, but never allows it to get matted, or near matted.
History:
Howlpaw was born in Doomclan with his parents Lilythorn and Rockshard. He had three other siblings that were born with him, but two died moments after their birth. That only left two alive; two toms, Howlkit and Goldenkit. They both looked like their mother, except Howlkit had brown eyes and Goldenkit had green eyes. Their mother loved them very much and so did their father. But after awhile Rockshard started visiting the nursery less and less until he stopped visiting them completely. He always suspected that their father loved them for awhile, but then got tired of them and decided he didn't care. Howlpaw never knew the real story and frankly he didn't care. He had a happy life in the nursery with his brother and mother until tragedy struck him like a blow to the heart. His mother and brother got a greencough and he had to be separated from them. They had to leave for the medicine cats den while he stayed in the nursery alone with other queens caring for him. It didn't seem that horrible to him for a couple days, but after two weeks they still weren't back in the nursery with him. His mother and brother were the only ones who made him smile and he hadn't smiled for days. Gaps began to tear his heart apart slowly.
Another week passed and they still weren't back. Howlkit didn't eat or sleep, to worried about his family. And an anger burned through his body at his father. Did he even care about them? Did he know one of his kits still needed him? That was an everlasting anger that kept on burning inside him.
Then one day there was a rumor that his brother and mother had died. He didn't know if he should believe it, so he went to the medicine cats den and saw that it was empty. Except one cat was moving through the den, muttering under his breath. It was the Medicine cat who noticed him a moment later, his expression one of sorrow. Howlkit understood that the rumor was true and his brother and mother were gone. After that day, his happiness disappeared and he no longer smiled.
Two moons later he became an apprentice and after his ceremony Rockshard left camp and was never to be seen again. He doesn't care about his father so he only focuses on finishing his training and being the best he can.
